SUCK. so much. i hate daydreaming soooo much. I used to love it. But now, it just makes me so depressed! trust me. If you were in my place, you'd hate it so much. All this dreaming is just... DEPRESSING. It's so impossible. And yet, I continue to wish and think about... uhmmm... you know what. Some of you don't get it. It's always been my dream to go to Paris and live there. But I just, It's just so impossible. Sometimes, I just really wish that I was contented with my life and forget about it. But it keeps coming out of my mind and it just won't stop!!! WHY CAN'T I JUST FORGET ABOUT IT? why can't I just face that it's so impossible and nothing will happen if I dream about it everyday of my life! It would just make my life miserable and make me soooooo depressed!

If it could just come true. I have everything planned! If only I could have JB Maunier as my boyfriend and we would live happily ever after. We would meet in a cafe... He'd smile at me. We'd go to the Eiffel Tower, we'd go up up there and be sweet and cuddly. And he would hug me. ahhhhh... I'm dreaming again. If I could jsut live like my dreams.
Here's another one. (I jsut can't stop my mind, you know) I'd be asleep in my bedroom. You know like the houses in france. The small Apartment-like houses. Outside it would be a fountain. And someone would throw rocks at my window. And when I look outside, I'd see him beside the fountain, and he's sing to me. I have no idea what song it is but it was jsut so magical. (Have I told you that he's a singer?)
One last, It was time for me to go home. TO REAL LIFE. here. We'd talk. And I'd say that maybe it's just not meant to be. I was gonna run away. It was so vivid. I saw myself in a scarf and a beret. I was running. Someone, touched my shoulder. I saw him. And we kissed. And as we kissed, the snow started falling...
the perfect romantic place in front of the Eiffel tower. And those cute brick steps.... It's the most impossible thing to happen to me. I mean c'mon. It would never happen to me.
1. I don't even live in Paris. And my mom said that It was hard to get a job there.
2. JB Maunier is a celebrity. No way is he gonna fall in love with a girl like me. I'm so ugly.
I hate REALITY!



mood: depressed
listening to: A french kiss soundtrack, especially I LOVE PARIS...
.:annakyut:.